18:47 2026-10-03

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hmm

my body is probably more tense, my upper back hurts. I tried to change my monitor position but it didn't help too much, at school, I hurt my neck the same.

today, I did a nice drawing, watched my "at least one ojamajo doremi episode", and ate lunch correctly. I am hungry for dinner actually, so that sounds good too. I am very happy that I'm eating. if a friend who had been struggling did these I would be very proud. I feel whatever about it, I hope I unlearn that.

I rest my back and study some maths... I should call my mother... if she brought me a treat I'd be happy...

recently, I thought my mother wasn't interested in my drawings or my other stuff, because she internalized that she can't understand them or something. that was terribly self-centered. I asked her again, and apparently I pushed her away and hid what I was doing every time. it was I who thought she couldn't understand, not her!!! it's kind of terrible that I did that without thinking, because I have forgotten I ever did that.

I'm sorry mom, I'll show you today's drawing...