02:43 2026-08-29

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the hour only corresponds to "when I decided to write this"

so, what is a diary? a collections of personal thoughts I don't know I'm not going to look it up

there are diaries that are written to be read by others and diaries written for yourself. inherently, this is the first type. I have tried to write down a physical diary before and just kept forgetting even while putting it next to me. I might forget this one too, who knows! but possible failure isn't a reason to not give it a shot.

I am writing a diary for others because I like to be noticed by others, but at the same time I only want to do what I want. I am a greedy, complicated person... actually, this is a good thing to comment on. "diary for assholes" isn't a self-deprecating name, I just find the word asshole to be really funny. and this is the exact type of sentence no one would type in a completely personal diary, but it's a fun exchange. honestly, we are having sex with each other right now just by you reading this. no, stop, iyahhh!!!

I am writing exactly what I want and I am happy. oh and I will not just post writings. I will post everything. also no rss for this one because I'm lazy. if you want to have your romance with me just check every day. you'll forget? you'll forget a sensitive young man? that's awful... you should do better... I don't know...

what's your opinion on cute things? you can't reply? I can still hear you. no I'm lying. there's a sentence I like that I made up although there's no fucking way no one thought of this before. "everyone is different but the same". fundamentally, you can say there are universal human experiences. trying to narrow them down is perhaps counter-productive, but you won't find an asshole who reached age 20 who hasn't ate food, and you can at least relate to that. although if I had to narrow the thing that every human being shares, because you can be like "uhhm akshually I'm a 20 year old who has grow up getting my nutrients everyday from a flavorless sludge tube!", it's that we all experience suffering. that sounds bleak motherfucker! I wouldn't say so. it just is. a baby comes out crying. everyone shares that. and those same people can also experience happiness. and then of course, no 2 people come out the same. can be similar, but never the same. I think the biggest poison someone can do to themselves is lose empathy. I think I would kill itamar ben gvir and would ultimately not be able to feel empathy for him. but that's because it requires incredible strength to do so (not weakness! if it was weak, it wouldn't be hard to do!!!). also you can kill people out of empathy so it's not some kumbaya shit. anyways. honestly I forgot my point. but basically even ben gvir suffers. so unfortunately I am the same as him. but thankfully I am different from him. get what I'm saying? you're the same as the "unwashed masses" and you should get over the thinking that makes you think of that turn of phrase in the first place. FUCK

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oh my god I like cute characters. dlanor my ANGEL.....................................................