17:32 2026-08-29

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yeah I can write on the same day

what's on my mind? earlier the day, I thought of interesting stuff, "maybe I should write this", but by now I have forgotten it. I have to accept that my existence is just constantly walking on quicksand. I mean I'm okay with it, it only bothers me sometimes. so I'm like, kinda okay with it. sort of. it's sometimes freeing. actually this is a good thing to think about. where do thoughts come from? do you know? do you choose your thoughts? sometimes. but how did you think of that choice? etcetera shit just pops in your head. comes and goes... at least the bright side is that you can't have a shitty thought permanently in your head.

also, I don't necessarily have to write about deep stuff everyday. shit just happens. that's life you shit. in life shit just happens.

my heart beats like a drum. my brain beats like a drum. my nerves are on fire. my nerves alight a circuit and I jerk with death to a drum and bass beat

I was always embarassed to write shitty poetry but now I don't have to anymore I have my space where I get best of both worlds in that someone reads it but no one can visibly react sucks to suck

one time I wrote this one while drunk:

the scorpion's sting runs black and thick, when your vessels explode and paint the ceiling of the night, scream like a phoenix!

and fuckk it still goes kinda tuff for a shitty poem I dunoooooooooooo it's about erika and dlanor umineko. uhgmh the last thing I want to do is ruin umineko for anyone. also read higurashi first. but it means a lot to me. you can write shit and care about pictures that are "low art" because distinctions like that are meaningless pieces of shit saturn on my dick a candy wrapper seen by millions has more impact on the world than van gohg (although impact =/= value WELL THE POINT IS THAT VALUE ISN'T REAL) write poetry about sonic the hedgehog you should care and anyone making you feel bad for caring is a piece of a shit

here's some tweet I made once: "making fanart as an artist is very interesting. all patterns all the way down. we are just the type that is very explicit about their symbols. not too far off from photobashing or collage"

you see what I'm saying basically stop thinking

I AM A CLICHé (oh my god azerty sucks so bad)