21:19 2026-09-06

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today I"m feeling romantic

because of how I grew up, I have a great sense that my love is immoral. so when I have normal feelings towards someone, I feel moreso like a killer or a rapist than just someone in love. but then, what is the difference between a killer and a lover? in some fundamental sense, love is about taking. if you meet me, you'll change, if I touch you, you'll change, if we merge, I'll absorb you completely and snuff you out. every exchange is a murder of a past you, and I'll be forever an imprint on you. eroi da!

well I'm a fake fake murderer rapist or whatever. what killer waits for permission before taking?

maybe I'll wait forever...

also this applies to every kind of human exchange, but every human exchange is romantic, is it not?

I love you

I ache so badly for you, that I realize I was the victim all along... no peace in war